feeling emotional again.. as usual.. suddenly, i find that my proper life had gotten into a mess because of myself.. memories flow back.. i remembered th0se days where my life only consist of myself and studies.. everything is fine.. why do i get curi0us over stuffs so easily?? getting good grades to me is a no prob.. why do i get so into r/s?? and eventually i screwed up my papers.. people were shocked when they realize i've repeatted 4 modules.. im not shocked at all.. right from the beginning i've got the feeling le.. ktv-ing, clubbing and smoking.. how not to repeat?? i feel so useless la.. seri0usly!! i cant imagine why have i became like dat.. im not a flirt.. and i definitely not a bimbo.. all i yearns for is some1 that i feel secure with.. able to p0ur to him all weals and woes.. im not too greedy right?? a shoulder for me cry on when im sad, to lean on when im tired.. overboard meh?? initially i though i've one.. but guess im too naive to think this way.. finally im learning to lo0k at things through the simple way, why force me to l0ok at it through the complex manner?? it hurts so badly seeing that you dun even realize you had done something wrong that hurt me so deep.. its not because i cant put down my pride and tell u what happened.. is because i cant guarantee that if i say it out, i will still continue our r/s.. i know im not perfect either.. i tried to forgive and forget.. i swear.. but its so difficut just like what
min said.. for th0se who tries to mock at me.. please f**king shut up.. you dun even know what i've gone through.. you dun understand me.. so please f**k off.. i'll make sure i get a GPA of 3 to pawn y0u..
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