finally im back to blogging. changed everything, but i still feel the mixed feeling within me. seriously, blogging really helps in relieving stress. millions of 'thank you' to the one that invented blogging.
once again, i did lotsa stuffs that i know i will somehow
regret in the future. but, what can i do?? Nothing. yup, theres nothing i can do now, so i wouldnt say something like "i wish to reverse the time" and whatever shit, cause its already too late. somehow i feel that im no longer the old jingyu, im changing too fast until i can no longer recognize myself. getting into poly really changes my life drastically. my temper become even worst and fiery, i stayed out late and without failing to reach home before 4am, turned to smoking which i shouldn't due to my health and i began to enjoy clubbing and drinking, which i hate to in the past.
frankly, i
depise myself. i feel that im
so shallow, so superficial. i hate to be in this manner but why am i changing to become one. thou i've no answer for the time being. but im very sure that i will have the answer sooner or later.
now let me just concentrate on my majors and make sure i will get good grades. and with the good grades, hopefully i will change to someone better.
god bless:) 