everything have come to an end.. is that what i realli wan?? i dunno.. so confused.. sorry.. i can 4give u.. i knew it rite from the start.. but i continue to deceive myself, not knowing that it hurts even more.. this r/s is a mistake.. mistake.. get it?? u and i belongs to 2 different worlds.. u wanted care and concern, but i choose fame and glory.. i yearns to move higher up in life, im not satisfy with who im now.. understand.. im sorry.. im no longer the old jingyu.. ever since feb 13, 2006, she have completely vanish for the world.. failure is really a very scary thing.. i dunwan to undergo the similar process again.. the pain is so unbearable.. but who is there for me?? none!! u expect me to be their for u every min, every sec, but do u know that me, myself are struggling very hard for survival.. sch work making me so worn out.. i juz need a listening ear.. but u're nv there to support me.. instead u choose to oppose me.. get this clear i jux need some1 by my side to hear my nagging.. not some1 who trys to irritate me further.. i suddenly feel like taking a long nap.. a nap that i nv got to wake up.. mentally, physically so worn out.. family, r/s, work and studies.. studies 1st, 2nd family, 3rd r/s and 4th work.. whats wrong with this arrangement?? i know that i cant juggle this 4 stuffs very well but at least i made an effort to work it out.. instead of complient me.. u add more loads to me.. so exhausted.. a understanding bf that will help me in my business management homework, so difficult to find meh?? why all of u guys are just so demanding & possessive.. haiz.. need a gd rest.. ciao~
